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12 May 2010 @ 12:25 am
 I just did 30 push ups, 50 sit ups and 50 jumping jacks. Today in school, I never stopped perspiring. The weather was so hot despite the rain.
I'm gonna do some weights now.

Tomorrow, I will go either swimming or jogging before Sinfonia practice at 8.30p.m.
 
 
11 May 2010 @ 01:07 am
 I swam 20 laps today.
 
 
14 April 2010 @ 08:11 am
I woke up at 5.30am this morning and went for a jog after I prepared and snacked on some biscuits with milo. I did 4km and I feel so amazing right now. I thought I’d just fail to wake up because I slept at 2am. I mean, even if I didn’t sleep at 2am…. Hahaha. Sadly, the morning fresh air had to be ruined by people burning papers for the dead. It’s not really that great either, jogging at 6-ish. It’s a little too late because the working adults and school kids are going to school and there’s lots of vehicles already on the roads. So I could smell the engine fumes (monoxide?) and…. the garbage truck. The best time to jog with the freshest air is probably during the midnight hours but I’m sure that my mum wouldn’t let me do that. Plus, I wouldn’t dare to anyway.

It’s so weird that I have this idea of waking up so early to jog. I was thinking of the quality of the air in the morning while I was walking home last night. It was about 1130pm and I was walking home after the long awaited rain which made the humid weather much cooler. Like way, much cooler. And the air was so good I wished I could jog at that time. (Well I was supposed to go jogging yesterday but apparently the weather had to change so drastically, so yeah)

And amazingly, I did it. I did a 4km. And I’m so glad I did! Now, time for me to sleep then I’m gonna meet Belinda for a swim in the afternoon!! ;)
 
 
Current Mood: happyhappy
 
 
21 March 2010 @ 01:46 am
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03 February 2010 @ 02:05 am

I have realised that since I was in primary 2, I have been in cliques with about the prettiest girls in school. But I had to spoil them. Maybe because they got all the attention, that's why I have a low self-esteem. And it seems to get lower as I grow older. The sentence, "Looks are not everything, personality is." is so overrated and untrue.

The issue has been revolving in my mind since forever. Perhaps it's because I don't often feel appreciated. Or perhaps I just secretly love attention. Either way, I think all these shit have made me obsessed about not being pretty and not being skinny every single day of my life. I sound so superficial myself. But trust me, it's true; some guys really do treat my pretty friends better than they do to me. And even though those guys don't mean anything to me, it still hurts. It fucking hurts. I would just like to fit in, is it that difficult?

And probably this is why I place my interest into painting pretty nails, dressing up and having nice hair. All because you think I don't have a pretty face. Well thanks? Maybe.

I do have a lot of best friends who are guys though. I can say that they are probably amongst the best guys around. Therefore when they tell me about the girls they like, I can't help but to feel envious. Not because I want them to be mine, but envious of the girls. I'm like a "brother" to these guys, I like how it works; I like our "men's night" outings, but sometimes I really wish I can be treated as a girl. Afterall, I really am. Nevertheless, I love you guys and I still find myself a lucky bitch for having you guys around and being one of your "brothers".

So I guess the only thing I'm really proud of myself is the ability to bring laughter to my friends. By making a fool out of myself, by real humour, I don't know. Either way, I'm happy because I like to be the happy pill of my friends. I hope I can at least be appreciated in this sense. Because I really love each and everyone of you.

But at the end of the day, who doesn't want to be pretty? Who doesn't want to keep improving?


 
 
Current Mood: blahblah
 
 
16 January 2010 @ 11:38 pm

Hi ya'all. I'll be over at Tumblr for the moment. I realised I would prefer that sort of arrangement for now cause I really want to blog but I have no time, and in tumblr I can spam posts like nobody's business and it'll still look nice. I'll be here for the long updates though. Stay tuned looney tunes!

http://icaughtalittlebabybumblebee.tumblr.com
 
 
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: Butchwalker - Mixtape
 
 
05 January 2010 @ 02:53 am
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I'm yawning big time as I'm typing this, but screw it. I'm determined to revive my space here. Partly because since it's the new year already. I ought to do up a decent post. I still wish I had a camera though, that'll make me much more motivated. Well oh well.

So... yes! It's the new year already. 2010. Sounds good? Not to me, but hopefully so. Looking back, 2009 seems to have gone by pretty fast. Maybe not just pretty fast, it's more like... Poof, and it's gone. I still remember yesterday as the day when I first stepped into Nanyang Polytechnic, determined to be a more organised little girl in my new school. I can still remember what I was wearing on the first day of shool. A white shirt, leggings and my pink adidas jacket over. I didn't want to take it out even though Vanessa and I were all lost in the school, trying to find our first classroom and someone behind us was laughing at me. And that someone, turned out to be my classmate and never did I expected us to become such close friends now. Along with three others, we became like a "clique". And it's kinda amazing how we can click with each other so well, despite the fact that we are all people with totally different personalities. Anyhow, I am glad I ended up where I am. I cannot imagine and picture how I would be like if I got a better score and if I managed to get into Ngee Ann's Mass Communication. I might even turn nerd because I can't fit in the social circle there. Haha.

In 2009, nothing much has changed I guess. Nothing drastic. I'm happy with the way things are amongst the secondary school mates. We meet up every now and then, quite often I can say. Just chilling for an hour or so is already a joy to me. Plus all the special occasions we spend together. Birthdays, Christmas and up to the most recent one, countdown to 2010. Jokes that existed since secondary 1 which we never seem to get sick of. The constant making fun of each other's retarded pasts and all the retarded things that we still do. I like how my guy friends treat me as part of them, and I get to join in when they meet up and have a "men's night". Although deep inside, I'd still like to be treated as a girl sometimes. Heh. How we wish we were still in secondary school...

Towards the end of year 2009 till now, somehow, I have been quite depressed about my life. Well, certain aspects of it, that is. Mehh, life still goes on anyway. I'm constantly trying to improve myself. And because I get demoralised and stabbed in my esteem quite easily, I'm improving at this very slow rate... which can be quite frustrating sometimes. Like how I find that there is no point in venturing further with my talents. I know, you'll think that what I'm thinking is like... ugh bullcrap. I should really be appreciative of myself though. Maybe that'll make me feel better. But y'know it's inevitable.... when you watch videos or meet someone who are extremely achieving with the degree of talent that they possess, you'll definitely compare yourself to them. That's when your esteem might be hurt :)

Now now, let me think of some resolutions to come up with... for the sake of it. I know I won't be able to achieve most of them.

1. Lose fatty fats! (HEHE Girls are always girls, no matter what)
2. Be less vulgar (HAHHAHAHA Cannot make it one lah pls)
3. Get a tattoo on my wrist! (I don't think my mum will allow it though. Sadface)
4. Get a new phone. (Hahaha is this even a resolution)
5. Maintain GPA at 3 and above.
6. Hopefully..... not quit any CCAs.
7. Sing for paid events
8. Become prettier (HAHHA ok)
9. Don't be a lazybum and work during holidays
10. Start saving money! (For pretty things like braces)

OKAY............ I bet you can tell that I'm not rlly good with setting resolutions. So... Fuck it. It's just there for the sake of it. Haha! On a random note, I want a Corby phone! So freaking cute lah! Stupid Ei Thei go tempt me... I was never obsessed with getting a nice phone. And a nice camera. Nice technology, basically. Not till my friends start getting nice stuffs. Humphhzzz. I'm secretly jealous inside and it'll kill me one day. But it's okay. Maybe I will get motor license and get an accident and die or something.

Okay, I want to bang wall now. Goodnight!

 
 
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Zee Avi - Kantoi
 
 
20 December 2009 @ 03:08 pm

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This is what I do to counter a disappointment

So you see I have been pinning up my fringe and banding up my fringe recently? Cause I have decided that I want to grow my bangs long long long so I can tuck my fringe behind my earssss. I made this decision official when I dreamt that I got my bangs back and I was damn freaking sad, so sad that I wanted to cry. It's like those feelings where something is at your throat when you're forcing back your tears. You know? I think you do.

And I started drawing brows because without drawing, you can't really see my brows so you'll think I've no brows but in actual fact, it's just that my brows are.....

1. Short
2. Scarce
3. Light coloured

So anyhow, yes I started drawing them so it's nicer like that and people won't continue asking me "Where are your brows, you look like you don't have brows!" And I've been using eyeliner almost everytime I go out. Bad sign, bad sign. I really don't want to rely on damn make ups y'know. Okay ironic but I think I'm just going to stop here! Just brows and liners... and maybe mascara for certain occassions. I've been trying out different hairstyles that I can wear out. If you know and realised... I like to do all sorts of things with my hair. Hahahaha Except those with chemicals involved. Like dye-ing it or perming it and things like that. Okay I don't know why the hell am I talking about all these. I think it's just because I grew even more vain recently. Seriously. Shit. Hahahaha. So it's the holidays now and I have to be on the look out for cheap cameras. My camera spoilt cause I am too ugly or something. Hahaha kidding, but I'm seriously damn sad about it. If you know me you'll know how camwhoring is like a part of my life. Without my camera, you can totally see the drop in my posts. So.. I.NEED.A.CAMERA! I know there's IT Fair going on at Suntec today but I'm too lazy to get my butt out of the house. Or rather, because I'm having my regular mestrual cramps again, and today is the third day. For the past two days, I still had to go out for christmas caroling and I am not going to force myself out again today. UNLESS... someone asks me out. Well depending who :) If not, I'm going to watch a movie online now! Byebyebyebye.

 
 
Current Mood: numbPain
Current Music: Alter Bridge - Open Your Eyes
 
 
19 December 2009 @ 12:59 am
You know what, I should learn to get used to it.
 
 
Current Mood: blahblah
 
 
06 December 2009 @ 02:28 am
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As much as I want to blog everyday, I am always too tired to do so. I think I've already explained this so many times already, I know. Heh yeah. There was once I wanted to blog so much but I just fell asleep eventually, and now I don't know what I wanted to blog about on that day. You see as I am typing this, I am yawning away. On thursday, I had only 2 and a half hours of sleep because of the 2 ICAs that were dued on Friday so you can imagine what state I was in on Friday, especially when I had christmas carolling session to do in the evening. Talking about carolling, it's like such an easy job to do because I didn't feel nervous at all since there were practically no one watching us. Really, except sometimes parents with little kids will stop by to watch us for a few minutes who would then walk off eventually. It's like a smale scale event so we're like carolling at Neighbourhood shopping centres. But please do not get mislead with the words "Shopping centres", it is totally a wrong thing to call those places shopping centres. Anyhow, I don't really care because at the end of the day, I'll still get my moolah!

Sigh sigh it's getting late (Or rather, damn early) and I have to wake up at 1030 to prepare and get my ass to Bishan at 12PM. Meeting my group members to practice our role play for some ICA. Then.... Meeting Clara at 5PM at Amk Mcdonald to finish up our production publicity stuffszzz. I hope she won't rape me because there's only going to be two of us. HAHAHA See I mentioned you okay, you crystal cool. Haha! Ok so I have between 2PM to 5PM to myself. I'll prolly go for a jog then. If the weather is good, that is. Even if I don't run, I guess I will feel less guilty about it since I'm feeling really uncomfortable and depressed because my period is gonna come, yet it doesn't want to come, and it makes my abdomen really bloated. And you know that it makes me feel damn fat out of a sudden, like A LOT more fatter than I usually am? That's the part where the sadness comes into the picture. Knowing myself, I'll most likely give jogging a miss tomorrow (Or actually, today). Then I shall paint my nails then! Hehehe.

Ok, I'm so tired. And I feel so bare without much pictures in my posts. I need to camwhore really soon! Not the webcam kind of camwhore. It's the camwhore I used to have in every single posts I did. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, even though it's not like you will care, but my camera is spoilt! I'm so sad and most importantly, guilty. Although it's a really cheap camera to begin with, but it's a birthday present from my mum! I haven't told her about it yet, let's hope she won't be heartbroken anyway. Haha!

Gheez I'm really tired. Goodnight.
 
 
Current Mood: tiredtired